Girl, I miss you...

I think I'm really falling apart...
There are a lot of many emotional happenings take place within me.
It's really really a tough, stressful moment for me to go through.


A very good friend of mine told me that she is gonna terminate the course.
Regarding to her family problem, she has to go back to JB.
I've known her for 5 years.
All of sudden I think I failed utterly as a good friend.
I failed even more utterly as her good friend.
I couldn't even help her.
Seriously I didn't know what to answer when I was listening to that constant stream of her matter from my schoolmates.

Well... After she left, I seriously had a breakdown.

We enrolled the course together.
Fortunately, we were allocated to the same group.
We were always sticking on each other while we were at school.
We had meals together, went to class together, did research together, laughed together.......

But now, I have to do all the things by my own,
make decision by my own,
and hell yeah no one is gonna wake me up in the early morning if I sleep late.



I just can't take it.

And the reason is that all the things changed in a sudden.


I know I should take it like a man and work about it.
And I promise I will. So, Jamie, don't worry.
I know I'm acting crankily. But I will be okay =)

Somehow, I question myself.

Am I being overly-reliant on the others?

I always look for my best friends when I'm facing problems.
And thankfully they are always there for me.

I came to realise that I have to learn how to solve my own problems.
I gotta be independent.
I gotta move on...

For the one last time......

Chin Ling, I miss you...